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Friday, July 27, 2007
Head connections.


I wish I could tell you something that wasn't true. That the reason why I look the way I do was because of another reason, rather than my stupidity. I wish I could stand in the face of the crowd and declare that it was because I was the hero of the moment. That I was bold and courageous and stood in the gap for another human. I wish I didn't have to tell you how it really is and what it's really like. I wish I could yell and make a creed that I took a punch for one who perhaps didn't deserve it. That I ran in the midst of it, shoved my hands in their face and said "Don't you dare lay a hand on this precious girl. I'll take it. I'll take the punch."

Because, that's what it looks like. That's what it would seem. It would seem I'm the hero, the brave one. Full of courage. The one who chose to make change to the world for that derelict.

But no. I'm afraid not. I'm afraid that the reason why I have concussion and was taken to the doctors was for another reason. I'm afraid to say that the reason why I have a big lump protruding on my forehead, where the doctor promises that I will wake up in the morning with a black eye- it's not because I had a fist connect to my head. It's because I'm stupid. Clumsy. An idiot, really.

Today at work I was so energised. Ready to meet any surprises. Rumour was a gang was coming to stab another. And you know what, I was ready. I was ready for that challenge. My boss calls me over, I bound towards him. And as I do, I throw something in the bin and... BANG. My head connected with the metal pole. I choked on my food. And before you knew it, I had a mountain growing out of my head.

It hurt. It really hurt.

But I'm okay.

I just wish I could say it was because I took a punch, rather than I walked into a pole.
posted by Samantha Louise 4:28 PM   4 comments
 
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  • At July 28, 2007 at 1:21:00 PM GMT+10, Blogger Mike Messerli said…

    I'm so sorry for your accident, but you write it in such a way that you make me smile too....It's hard to say "ouch" and smile at the same time...hope you heal quickly..I'll be praying for you.

     
  • At July 30, 2007 at 3:39:00 AM GMT+10, Blogger mutating missionary said…

    I join Mike in saying - OOHHH I'm sorry that happened to you.
    Isn't it frustrating to have to deal with the reality that we are human? I know I wish my Wonder Woman skills would appear in situations like that - alas...I am simply an under woman... you know? Under God's Grace woman - giggle
    Covered by His hand - even when I have had a big purple egg on my forehead... but mine was a great big tree hanging out over the whitewater rapids that we were canoeing over. One minute I was digging into the Guadelupe River with all of my force and the next I looked at the branch hanging out over the water. It stole my glasses and left a tennisball on my forehead!

     
  • At August 4, 2007 at 9:53:00 PM GMT+10, Blogger Littlesteph said…

    ah sammy! oh noes, are you okay? I hope your head doesnt hurt too much!

    I have a similar story :P I went to have lunch with Jason, and as I was pushing the door to get into his office (his boss-man was on the other side with the receptionist and a few other people) and I jammed my thumb in the door! Dont ask me how!

    I walked in, thinking "i will not cry, i will not cry" and his boss who saw it was like "...ouch??" and alls i could muster in a teeny tiny little voice was "lunch" "jason" and he pointed me in the direction of Jason.

    when i got out of the office i burst into tears, it was more shock than anything.

    I feel as Christians, we all do sometimes get caught up in "invincible" thinking at times, so to be brought back down to earth is kind of nice, even if it does sort of hurt!

    I hope your feeling well and your bruising and lump goes down soon :)

     
  • At August 7, 2007 at 12:37:00 AM GMT+10, Anonymous Paul said…

    Yep, I agree, ouch. I bang my head every now and then. It doesn't hurt as much these days.

     

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Tuesday, July 24, 2007
Three thoughts.
- Today I'm taking a girl who lives on the streets to the movies. I'm looking forward to giving her an escape from reality. Speak life where there is death. Hope where there is none.

- Codral cold + flu tablets are my hero of the moment.

- Until the day God uses me to see a dead man raise to life... I know I am not walking in the fullness of what God has for me.
posted by Samantha Louise 9:15 AM   2 comments
 
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  • At July 26, 2007 at 9:08:00 PM GMT+10, Blogger Mike Messerli said…

    Sam,

    I love your zeal to see God work in your life! But may I point out something? You said, "Until the day God uses me to see a dead man raise to life... I know I am not walking in the fullness of what God has for me."....and yet you are living out the life God called you to live simply by taking a girl who lives on the streets to the movies. Don't you realize that is the stuff of the Holy Spirit? It's not the big miracles that God smiles at...it's the little ones...like taking a girl on the streets to the movies...you may see a "dead" girl raised to new life...that's an eternal miracle! Have fun at the movies.

     
  • At August 4, 2007 at 9:56:00 PM GMT+10, Blogger Littlesteph said…

    ah its so amazing! God is moving ^_^

     

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Tuesday, July 3, 2007
trials
As I sit here in my office, a small smile cannot help but escape my face. I feel a glow on my cheeks, a dance in my heart.

It seems painful, but incredible. I'm yet again facing the same trials that were thrown in my face at the beginning of the year. Same hurt. Same problem. Same pattern. It's a temptation to want to throw myself on my knees and ask WHY ME, WHY NOW, MAKE IT STOP.

But this time it is different.

I refuse to compare myself to other people and to question why God is allowing this in my life. A thorn in my flesh. I smile, because I learn. I smile, because I can see what God is doing.. I can see His Hand.. I can see His glory in this.

Suffering as a christian.

It's a necessity for the development of our character. And oh boy, how much I want my character to reflect the character of Christ!

My new client helps put things into perspective. Reality is, what I face is nothing compared to what she faces. And what many other people face. She lives on the streets. She has no identification. She makes up her birth date. She makes up her name. She knows nothing. Has nothing. In the worlds eyes, she is nothing.

To Christ- she is everything.
posted by Samantha Louise 9:15 AM   3 comments
 
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  • At July 3, 2007 at 4:55:00 PM GMT+10, Blogger Robyn said…

    Sam, have you heard of Heidi (and Rolland) Baker - Iris Ministries?

    Look her up! She's AWESOME!
    Somebody who knew nothing about me told me the same thing... the person said the basis of Heidi's ministry is to...

    "LOVE THE ONE"

    That's what you and I are called to do! Love the ONE that others ignore or don't want to care about.

    Well done Sam!!! You're so beautiful :)

     
  • At July 5, 2007 at 9:11:00 PM GMT+10, Anonymous Phil said…

    hey sammy, have a read of 30 days under the over pass! very amazing story, and i am sure you can relate to what they go through

     
  • At July 9, 2007 at 8:33:00 AM GMT+10, Blogger Mike Messerli said…

    Sam,

    I will pray for you. Don't know what you are facing, but will pray or God's work in your life.

     

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